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Friday, March 16, 2007

YEAH..have not been updating for sooo long!I'm FINALLY BACK!!from the camps of 5 consecutive days..though its tiring, but the most important thing that i gained alot from it..before i came to the camp part,we had our sports day last Friday..and this were the results!(sorry..kindda long already)..

ANDES--CHAMPION!
ROCKIES--1ST RUNNER-UP
EVEREST--2ND RUNNER-UP
ATLAS--3RD RUNNER-UP

BEST CHEER--EVEREST!!
BEST MASS DANCE--ROCKIES!!

then went home quite late and reach home to prepare for the things for the tomorrow's camp which is SLDP CAMP!really in the first place i really don't feel like going for the camp..but had to go..was waiting for my names to be called in which group i was in..but they didn't called my name!and finally they put me in a group with alyssa..was totally high at first..cheering and stuff..and our trainer was SIR JOHN!and our group name was BANZAI!then started to feel bored but i knew i had to change as i can't be possibly not enjoying myself for the rest of the days..played games which i cannot recall the names of the games..started to enjoy myself with the rest of my group members..then the first day in the evening,we took the bus to zhenghua park for the night walk..and heard that we had to walk in the dark alone!and before that,LORD JEFF told us alot with his ghost stories..he said that he purposely tell us this things so that we could fight with our mind while walking alone in the dark..then we wash up and time to lights off..

DAY 2

It was really difficult to open my left eye.it was really heavy..and i was shocked to find out that my eyes was swollen..maybe there's an insect had bit me..was totally swollen and i had difficulty opening my eyes..i was nearly send back home which i totally wouldn't want it..the teachers kept a look out whether they really need to send me back home..but was lucky that it didn't worsen..had alot of games buliding our team and everything..yah and had discussion about the performance..in the first place i really thought that i don't have any confidence in my team having a good performance..we brush up and gave all the best we could..and yes we did sir john proud i think..yah mr harris was putting a sticker which wrote ''WHO I AM MAKES A DIFFERENCE''..it was really a memorable thing in my life that particular night..it is the last night..and we wrote our reflections and stuff..and sir john went to talk to me and alyssa..all his words motivated me..he's right!i will never forget all the sacrifices he made and everything that we had gained..

DAY3

yes i had mixed feelings..i really feel like not ending this sldp camp..but it had to come to an end anyway..had last area cleaning ..and we did last thing which is to write a note to the peope whom you appreaciate them..In the first place i was trying to remain calm and hold back my tears..but once more notes were received,i started to feel touched and started to burst into tears..!thanks to all those 18 notes..i reall appreaciate them aloot..and its time to end off..and SIR JOHN really gives us his last words and we did take a photo of our team ..we really miss him!we even said we love you to him..imagine 2 1/2 days and we were so close like this,.we put our hands together and said go go go..and sir john told us that the louder we said, the longer we will be together which made us burst even more..we went off from there..and we started to miss him already..so we decided to come back and see him again..yah we were really mad..hahahs..and after that went to put my bags and went down again to buy things for gunung datok..had our lunch together with aly,ker and mar..

A BIG THANKS TO ALL THE LORDS ,SIRS AND LADIES FOR YOUR GUIDANCE!I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THIS AND I WILL APPLY THEM TO MY DAILY LIVES..!THANKS FOR ALL THE SACRIFICES YOU GUYS MADE AND I REALLY APPRECIATE THEM ALOT!I GAINED ALOT FROM IT WHICH I WILL NEVER FORGET..THANKS TO SIR JOHN FOR ALL YOUR GUIDANCE!WE WILL NEVER FORGET YOU FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE!

W3 CLUSTER GUNUNG DATOK EXPEDITION!
~gonna update it soon..~

9:10 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

hey there..yah this is what people will start of when they blog..which is usually they will start of with this..''finally had time to blog..have been busy lately..'' and stuff like that..yah..me too..been so busy lately..yes lesbo i agree with you..we didn't have time for ourself too.i really don't know what happened to me either..this is really a not good thing to write..but i failed my maths and a maths in my CA..gonna buck up!yah saying about my school life..hais..its really bothering me..gonna practise and revise my work more ..yah i've been so stress with the things around me..studies..and everything..yah i don't know why out of the blue i burst into tears..maybe i am not a good leader?i am useless?but why can't they understand what we were going through..?didn't they realise how hard we need their cooperation to get things done well?can they show some seriousness in their work?hais..don't feel like saying it further..have alot of things to be done..but i cannot get away from it as it will be a learning experience for me,maybe..have not been fully recovered ler..maybe because i'm too tired..was sick the other day and get one day mc.instead of staying at home, i went to school..i don't want to miss any lessons.and yah i think i will flung my maths test again..OMG! i really don't know what happened to me!alot of things bothering me ler..yah..i've not ben sleeping enough too..having panda eyes..there was a time i slept at 2.30 am doing the presentation for the gunung datuk..

yah went to jurong west student council investiture..and yah..i don't want to say anythng about it..went back to school while drizzling and having blisters as we walked back to school..yah i really don't know what to blog.. i knew theres alot of things happened but i really had forgotten what is it all about that had happened..really..i don't have a peaceful mind right now..i don't know when exactly i will be posting le..gonna be busy with alot of things..camps and stuff..

i don't know why i want to this but i guess to me its true ler..

HAVE YOU EVER WONDER?

hais..sometimes i did not know why..this questions always keep making us in a confuse state..it will never be answered..why must they hurt other people's feelings?i don't even care if they would want to hurt people's feelings but obviously its always happening to us..can they show some empathy ? why must they hurt us ?! why don't they understand us?they just want us to understand them about what the want and expect us to give them..but did they ever appreciate all that ? don't they even ask themselves whether what we want were granted ? can't they be a man ? please la..they still can react like there's nothing happened..they were just treating it as a normal thing..the things that makes us felt crestfallen and throw in the towel in relationships were all comes from you.. you have no heart for us..we gave it all but what did you return to us ? heartless..they were just treating us like toys..when the toy is new,in this case when they were just together,they will care and show concern by treating it well and make sure that it will not be dirtied..when they were bored, they will play with it..when they don't feel like playing with it anymore and finds that its useless having it,they will not care about it and just throw it anyway and anywhere they like.and some can just dump it without thinking!without ever think about the feelings .all they know is just to hurt them without ever thinking and understanding..they just know how to bring tears to us..have they evey sit down and realise what they had done ? its no ose letting us wait if you never cared at all ! have you ever feel how deep our cut in out heart..how much it bleed till ? made us in a confusion state..stess us..we don't want to remember about you..but the things you made always reminds us to that..can they just appreaciate al those sacrifices we've made ? they never cared at all..our heart is like a glass..it break seasily..they sometimes don't ever care if it breaks..some don't feel guilty after breaking it..let it shatter into pieces without ever think in the first place..yes a glass will never be back into pieces once its broken..even its being formed back,it will still have cracks.but they didn't ever think on how to meant it back..they just jumped into conclusion that it will never be formed back again and let it be..we can't be possibly keep quiet and let you hurt us even more..we are the weaker gender.can they support us and not letting us to be further weakened ? step in our shoes..i am not saying all of you are like this..but most of them is yes.its really hard ..when you see us teared..what do you think the cause is ? most of it bacause of you..all you know is just to hurt us and letting us not having a peaceful mind!please..spare a thought and think..

8:21 PM